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to “icberg”

January 16th, 2018by Fuckedupworld

Thank you a lot, but I don’t think I’d be able to do anything, I just hope I’ll find something to make it quick.

What I like on myself is my ability to acknowledge my flaws, which are a lot, and to understand what a bad person I am.

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Get it out of my head

January 16th, 2018by plebs

I’ve been on a downward spiral since last year and I’m just tired of feeling this way. Every day I think about scuicide and no matter what I try it doesn’t get out of my head. The thoughts have been here since December. Sometimes I hear things that aren’t there and it keeps me up at night, which isn’t helping me feel better at all. My parents are pretty good and they say they care for me, but I dont feel an emotional connection. They won’t let me get meds, but are perfectly willing to waste time and money on a therapist that does jack …

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exhausted

January 16th, 2018by spectralgiraffe

Why do I have to keep going with this life, I don’t wanna live or die. I’m so tired, I’ve said this many times. Sick of getting out of bed. The only highlight of my life is my online bf. Life is pointless anyway.

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Pieces

January 16th, 2018by Justnoonemuch

I can feel the pieces. I don’t know who I talk to. Am I talking to myself? Am I leaving this here for you to find one day? Am I venting to strangers? I wish you would find this. I wish you would listen once more. You were the best medicine I ever had. I can feel the pieces of me. I don’t know when I shattered. But I can remember the first symptoms. I remember cutting because with a numb mind. I remember your tears when you hurt me because you grabbed my arm and you found my secret so so long ago. So …

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Find method

January 16th, 2018by Jean-bean102

When I found out that I have perfect method right under my nose whole time now. I feel like I want to burst out laugh in joy. I am relieved. I find a way to take myself out when time come. When that worse moment happens, I would be very glad to take whole of it in my mouth and swallow. I am ready. I don’t want deal with this emptiness any longer with anyone I give my heart to. I refuse to do that again. I am ready to stop all of it. I don’t care.

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Only Yourself

January 16th, 2018by FragileFemale

What I’ve learned in this perception altering life is that, no will be there for you. No matter how much friends or family you think you have, nobody will pick you back up when you fall. Nobody. I’ve always been the type of person that consistently put others before myself. But when it comes down to returning the favor, they run. Only you can pick yourself back up and only you can help yourself. You can’t depend on others to fix you. I’ve stopped putting everyone before me and started putting myself first. Because in the end, everyone will be gone. People will come and …

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January 15th, 2018by clipped-wings

I really wish someone in this crappy world had answered my cries for help before it got to this point. I’ve switched to autopilot. Canceling things. Took down social media accounts. All they ever did was make me feel left out anyway. Cancelled PT. Its a hopeless cause. I’m planning to be in a different situation by the end of the week. Perhaps I shouldn’t have ordered those nice boots after all. They can be returned. I’m sorry to the young folks on here. Please get help and fight for your life. Don’t expect someone else to pull you back from the edge. They won’t. …

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nearer the exit

January 15th, 2018by OnlyMoney

today the banks started freezing my accounts… another hurdle which can be only lift with money that will never come….

still i took it with serenity. i guess the exit is coming closer and i will probably have to do it on a 24h notice

i had planned to last until spring

tonight i chat with some helpline… he tried to avoid the talk of suicide alltogether, what hypocrisy

i decide to leave until it is no longer possible for me… i have to have a shelter (my home not seized yet) … some money or promise of money… a functioning vehicle because i live in a rural area… …

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Is this really so funny?

January 15th, 2018by LittleBead

Is this really so funny? That I feel awful, that I would like to be loved, wanted and needed? C’mon, ridicule me more. Why should you stop yourselves. Accuse me of imaginary things. Make me feel guilty of everything. Tell me that I am useless because I can’t attend this fucking university and am fed up with this stupid shit. Or maybe be all lovey-dovey and then abandon me. Or you, why do you hesitate, tell me that I am lazy, just dare say that I am lazy after my 12-hour work at home office. Or maybe you, tell me that you don’t really want …

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Why?

January 15th, 2018by clipped-wings

Why do I wish I was dead all the time? This has been going on since at least 1980. I didn’t seek help until 1991. Since then I’ve been under psychiatric “care”.  Impatient. Outpatient. Different medications. Trying to change things about myself, about my life, about the world. I wake up optimistic and end my day defeated. I spent today on the couch crying. Next to my still decorated Christmas tree. At least I managed to cook dinner. Didn’t eat much. Slunk upstairs. Put a round in the chamber. And so it goes.  I don’t want to die. But I don’t feel like I have …

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To “Fuckedupworld”

January 15th, 2018by iceberg

I tried responding to your post, but it didn’t take. Idk why.

You have a lot of stamina and purpose for someone so close to making a decision to exit. I can’t help but wonder why you don’t stick around and search for the beauty in the world, as f’d up as it is. With your work ethic, you can choose a path out of your present hell that takes you to a different place entirely.

 

 

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hello darkness my old friend

January 15th, 2018by spookichick

i am having a very difficult evening. i am consumed by anxiety, and cannot take anymore clonazepams. anyone have any suggestions or words of wisdom to feel better?

 

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Cuphead Gameplay

January 15th, 2018by mindlessgamer619

Just for the sake of some positivity, here’s me failing at Cuphead. This is the 5th boss in World 1, Cagney Carnation. I was pretty close this time.

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1n_ofwzWFlYShdkNvqNEj9OkoURB0AJME

Update: Here’s another one. This is the 1st-3rd boss in World 2, depending on how you play it. Baroness Von Bon Bon. I was also pretty close here as well. (I did manage to beat them both. Yay!)

https://drive.google.com/open?id=132PszZkMP5Bnuprs7h8RQWhtHomAY_0T

It’s a fun game with a bit of challenge to it. More uploads coming soon.

 

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Why can’t I reply to any post?

January 15th, 2018by Fuckedupworld

Help me? Any admin I cant reply to any post at all

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I’m back at least for now

January 15th, 2018by Fuckedupworld

Some of you might remember me, I was really active a few months ago.

I mentioned in a post that I’d be gone after new year, but here I am writing a post here.

I’ve had a really busy schedule, and me being the lazy person I am didn’t like using that bit of free time I had to actually go out and look for supplies that I’d need to…well.

 

Let’s skip a few days further after asking around for around 2 weeks around december my friend told me he knewa location, I finally got myself ready to go and look for them, but i didnt find the …

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Things you are glad they exist

January 15th, 2018by eternaldarkness

1. The Internet – ’twas once upon a time when there was no Internet. However did we such uncivilized beings live back then?? ’twas the “dark ages”…
2. Delivery – how else can we- the depressed, the introverted, the misanthropes, the agoraphobics, the disabled, the shut-ins, the emotionally “off”- live?

hmm, that’s all I got. What are you glad exists? What can you not live without or would have a total decline in life without (aside from the basics- food, water, housing, waste removal, etc)?

Well, I suppose I would trade it all for non-existence, but that’s a different post…

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Hawaii Five-Oops

January 15th, 2018by Once

Just wondering. . . With the false alarm in Hawaii this weekend, I’m curious.

Your phone receives the text message many Hawaiians received Saturday. What would YOU do?

I’d head home, gather up my cats in my bedroom with me, get very very high, and sit and wait, hoping.

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get me out of here

January 15th, 2018by Ursaminor

i’m so done with the rules of life, it feels like everything is decided for me and i don’t have any say in what i can and should do with it. I feel so trapped and stuck in this house, in this town. I want to get away from here, far away, just buy a train ticket to somewhere and never look back, but i’m too much of a coward to actually run away. Maybe that’s why i think about death so often, because i can’t get away in a physical sense, but maybe not thinking and being able to feel anything would be a …

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Suicide as a free and rational choice. It can be.

January 15th, 2018by BML84

I’m reading through postings and its strikes me that many people simply cannot, or will not, accept the idea that you can be sound of mind and body yet still wish for euthanasia.

I beg to differ.

On the surface I’m not your typical suicide- employed at a place where I’m well liked, friends, house, income. Not suffering any mental/physical illness, nor even depressed in the classical sense.

Since my Mother died I have felt less and less reason to be here. I never felt attached to this world at the best of times but now I find it increasingly repellant.
I have never liked being here- and …

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We all need mercy

January 15th, 2018by Baked13

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