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  November 16th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Is this world real? You can’t decide, and what is real? There might be something real inside but how can real and unreal coexist?

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Is Cold Down Here

  November 16th, 2018 by ravingbean

At the bottom of the pit. I wish there was a way I could pull myself out. It feels so hopeless. Please help me.

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Up and

  November 16th, 2018 by ravingbean

Down. I’m down. I’m overwhelmed and ready to go. I may not be able to go through with it. But I want to say goodbye.

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The Most Annoying Things People Say

  November 16th, 2018 by eternaldarkness

I’ll start:

“Things will get better”
–Without actually doing a damn thing to help you.

“Just pray.”
–Please, if praying worked, we wouldn’t have death, diseases, low wages, crushing poverty, war, gangs, violence, brutal dictatorships, etc and etc

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Humans Are Disappointing

  November 16th, 2018 by eternaldarkness

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Lost soul

  November 16th, 2018 by mayvanmentino

So I want to tell straight to the point that this is the very FIRST time that I could get to open up about what I feel. EVER.

I am now 20 years old but it felt to me like I’ve been living my 20 years in agony, shame and doubt. I do not know at the moment if I have depression or any clinical conditions since I am too afraid to seek help to anyone, not even a doctor. And do not take that for granted.

My family is a bit unstable as I can say. As the years go on, the love that I have …

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“Solid; The Whitest Dose.”

  November 15th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Deby says: “Picture a mountain. Lofty Peak. Slope. Trees. Plateau. A beautiful, large mountain with a snow base.” You are beyond words in this meditation. But you still have words. “I hate this mountain.” – Not every one.

You are a mountain. You suddenly have no words. You change as a mountain within season, survival renders as light or as darkness. Our lives change, but the mountain remains amidst the universal web. The weather has no personality yet is as much invisible as the next galaxy. 

“You are a beautiful blanket of seasonal colours.” You only live once. True/False? 

You are a Tweaker. Bugs are crawling …

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Everlasting Gobstopers

  November 15th, 2018 by ravingbean

I was frustrated. Swallowed a few extras. Maybe more. Just want to sleep for a few days.

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Giving Up is Easy

  November 15th, 2018 by IrrationalLion

its so fucking easy to give up and tell myself this stupid future im planning for myself is fucking dumb and unrealistic and that ill never make it in life and that im screwing over people I get close to because im such a difficult person. Like having me in your life will literally add stress. I actually just wanna disappear forever because Im so over the life im living and im out of motivation

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assisted suicide

  November 15th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

i read posts about it and im sure most of you like the idea. thinking that it is easier. you dont have to do it yourself. we have it where i live. have since 2016. i looked into it a few times but quickly realized it wasnt the best option. to start with although people with depression and whatnot are eligible for it. its damn near impossible but thats not the only thing. what really got me was a news story i read. it was about a girl. i dont remember what the problem was but she was eligible. it took doctors, trained professionals, seven …

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Lets all stick together !!!

  November 15th, 2018 by Escalado

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Ode to mud

  November 15th, 2018 by rivets

I hope my life is this amusing to passers-by. It probably isn’t, but one can hope.

 

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Scabby

  November 15th, 2018 by ravingbean

I think I’m developing dermatillomania.  I’m going to speak to my therapist today. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to stop?

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  November 15th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

It’s hard living with this old woman in this house

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Fuck this I’m leaving

  November 15th, 2018 by morado123

So if anyone knows, there was a big test today at my country.

A lot of students actually commit suicide because of that test.

I think I’ll be one of them. ^^

 

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Mediocrity

  November 14th, 2018 by J Doe

I think that I have to accept that I’m just mediocre. When you think about it being mediocre really isn’t the worst thing in the world. Actually it’s really common to be mediocre. It’s the definition. I breezed through high school if you think about it. Any perceived trouble I had was really nothing to sneeze over. University is like a kick to the jaw. And even then it isn’t that bad compared to the more advanced stuff. And that is absolutely nothing to the real world. I’m mediocre and that is that. Why …

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What to Wear

  November 14th, 2018 by ravingbean

I always imagined my suicide to be impulsive. Now that I’ve been thinking about it for over half of my life I find myself asking, what should I wear to die?  Should I go the way I came?  With my skin and scars visible to the world?  A suit?  Dressed for a party?  Perhaps a favorite activity?  Swimsuit and snorkel?  Pajamas?  Oh my. I should get back on my ADD meds so I can make up my mind. Maybe in my undies with two different shoes…

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The Practicalities of Self Deliverance

  November 14th, 2018 by BehindDeadEyes

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  November 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I’m gonna run out of antipsychotics to put me to sleep eventually. Then it’ll be back to feeling like I haven’t slept in years.

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Sorry Mom

  November 14th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

Sorry, I had to yell at you about the whole mother, older brother, and younger brother dynamic but it was the only way to remind you that he will end up playing you and then end up coming back to me you need to stop talking to him not for my sake but for all our sake because he will relapse back on opioids I already made my choices which are good and bad inaction and action and choice led to mistakes and consequences but the repeat of the 10 1/2 years of the back and forth I can’t deal with that because I need …

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