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God

October 21st, 2017by lostallhope001

I am a religious person, but I’m getting my doubts. If God really exists, why has he made me like this?

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Tired of this pattern

October 21st, 2017by hiohneh

Putting everything off until tomorrow is not a good strategy because it all piles up until tomorrow becomes today and you have to deal with it.

I try to fill myself with artificial energy and tell myself I do not care but it doesn’t work. I’m still tired and I still care.

There is nothing that will make me want to continue doing this. What is this? What am I doing? Where am I going?

I’m having a hard time handling this pain. I hate lying to myself and to everyone else but I have to. No one is honest anymore because honesty hurts. No one wants to hurt. I don’t …

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should i tell my best friend ?

October 21st, 2017by cutediamonds

on the road to death, i have this urge that at least i should message a suicide note to my one and only best friend , whom i haven’t talked with nearly 6 months .

he is so caring he always motivate me and stuff.

i am 27 so is he, i don’t want him to ponder what happened to my friend for all his life long , should i do it ?

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Attn: LGBTQ people, here’s a damn good reason to keep living

October 21st, 2017by OneShot

I’m not LGBTQ (at least not that I’m aware), but today I wish I were. I just read a news story about some college campus in Ohio that got covered with flyers telling LGBTQ people to kill themselves. So, to spite the douchebag who wasted $$ printing them up and spent 6 hours of his no-life posting them (they were removed first thing in the morning), I say you should live. That’s all you gotta do, just don’t commit suicide, and you will beat that douchebag. Victory drinks on me.

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Death can wait.

October 21st, 2017by Octr

Isn’t suicide 9 times out of 10 just a means to attempt to end a suffering? Be it mental or physical pain?

but it’s a complete gamble, you have no idea what’s waiting for you once you go for it… Just ideas.

You’ve got this scenario, where you are as far as you’re concerned, living everyday in agony and pain and you want to escape that, what if after taking your life you are faced with 10x that amount the pain,

is suicide just desperation?

is that why it’s worth it? Any single chance that the suffering could end?

so much desperation, so much pain.

people die everyday, people commit suicide …

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one of those days

October 21st, 2017by Rosebrider

There are some days where I’m feeling great and some days where I wish I could end it all.

Today is one of those days.

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My dream last night

October 21st, 2017by noah5678

last night, I had a dream where I was dying. I had a dream where I was bleeding out to death, but I didn’t feel any pain at all. Then I woke up and realized it was just a dream. I was PISSED. I really wish this were true.

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Caffeine powder overdose

October 21st, 2017by lostallhope001

Someone who knows someone who used this method? I read on the internet that some people take 2 hours to die, others collapse immediately. I want to do it with this method, but I don’t want a slow, painful death

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Leaving

October 21st, 2017by emptyshell9

Everything has lost point. I’m so tired of everything that I don’t even wanna hear about the reasons to live. I got raped and it fucked up every sense of who I was. Everything that I have built so far in my life got destroyed, along with my sense of self. My personality just faded. I feel like my brain is dying out and I’m becoming dumber and dumber as the time goes by. At first, it started as PTSD until I realized my mind has been taking me to every trauma I’ve gone through as a child until I totally disconnected from my past …

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What happens when I tell others

October 21st, 2017by Metagame

You might have a different opinion. But in my mind I have no option. If I tell my friends, they don’t want to be my friends anymore because no one wants a negative downer friend. No chance in getting a gf because no woman wants a depressed guy. If I tell my parents, they will constantly think I am going to kill myself and I am a burden to them. Infact if I tell anyone, I will get fired, because a worker with depression is a liability. I will get more depressed, lose all my money and become homeless. And I’m thinking homeless people are …

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Not an apology for Quinoa’s ignorant rant

October 21st, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

Based on my last note, I now realize who I have become, and who I was. My Quinoa came in screaming and throwing ALL KINDS OF NEGATIVITY my way. Little do they know I now make fun of people who do that because it honestly solves nothing. But, it can get the cops called on you lol. This Quinoa said many things they thought were true. I thought they were full truths at some point as well. But this person is someone who I should (idk if this door is still open) talk to more, or at least learn more about them, they have a …

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Invitation day?

October 20th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

By now, I just became aware that not only the other main Creators also sick, and probably VERY MUCH SO, but I found out through others who have NO relationship to them. It’s ok, I’ve also discovered I’m most likely autistic, and bipolarish which s why it seemed like innatentive adhd. Good news is I’m clearly high functioning (kinda). And that my current job is teaching me MULTIPLE coping skills that my creators, and the Proxy creators thereafter attempted to download onto the traveler’s hard drive. I now know why they couldn’t download it, file was not compatible. I feel guilty, because the other …

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@Jayne – 2

October 20th, 2017by PhotographyIsMyLife

Received something today.  I am beyond honored…thank you.  So much.

Please reach out.

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Failure

October 20th, 2017by theblackveal

Needed money and a guy I’ve known for a while agreed to be my “sugar daddy”.
He keeps coming up with excuses in not paying me what we agreed on. Figures I fail at being a sugar baby too.
I feel as if I am playing a game of how many things can you fail at…
Now I just feel used (although he lives on the opposite coast so no sex was involved) and I’m still in need of money.

Fail, fail, fail

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(Question) Protected: Forbidden Colours

October 20th, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

Does anyone know what this post is all about? It reads similar to:

Password:Darvin This content is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password:

Just curious, not really trying to start stuff. If admins are not ok with this or I should mind my business, it’s cool.

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no will

October 20th, 2017by venice

I have no will to live anymore, I basically see my life as an object. so easy to get rid of or to break. I cant tell my family because they see it as a weakness as a set back they always tell me just to be happy but how can I force happiness I cant just force a smile on my face, but lately that seems to be all I’m doing. I self harmed a month ago I cried that day because of it but does anyone know, nope well whoever reading this does now. I’m failing my classes because of anxiety, because all …

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when I reached the peak of happiness I suddenly dropped

October 20th, 2017by l8za

Another night crying myself to sleep, because I feel like I have no one to talk to about how unhappy I am or how left out and dull I feel. Of course people /”friends”will say “you can always talk to me about anything” Yes maybe I can talk to them but what ever I say will be used against me, rumours will spread and people will judge you. I was at a peak in life and I guess I’ve fallen down again. I literally feel like nothing. Like I’m an outsider in this world, even with family. The point of all this is

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October 20th, 2017by Darvin

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Thoughts.

October 20th, 2017by Jen

Ever wonder where do our thoughts come from?

Like there’s always a common system out of everything. An input, process, output kind of thing. How every wire in our brain connects and or is connected to decode what IS. Just like how Letters that didn’t have value or meaning alone created words when connected with other letters. And words, sentences. Sentences, paragraphs, etc.

You get my point? Its kinda amazing. The process. How everything works the way it does. And of course the output. But i really don’t get where the every bit of input comes from before it gets processed by our …

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Kiaora, some morning rambles

October 20th, 2017by Hadouken

There is no peace and serenity after taking your own life.

I want to call such thoughts ignorant..  but knowledge that isn’t exactly given to us needs….. we can’t label everyone ignorant.

You’ll be stuck in limbo where anything may get their hands on you. Taken for enslavement. More darkness than your soul will ever know. Your soul has been through enough. Your human may feel like giving up but your soul will forever continue to want to fight.

Taking your own life isn’t supposed to be. We aren’t supposed to feel these implanted feelings. They don’t belong with us. We need to conquer our human selves.

There’s nothing …

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