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I feel like I’m not worth of anything or anyone

August 16th, 2017by returntosoil

I’m a person who isolates myself from people for 6 years now. I started isolating myself when I was 14, because I was abused a lot, both physically and mentally, by my family, classmates and later teachers. I started being afraid of people at first and then got anthropophobia (pathological fear of people or human company). I can’t deny that it’s really lonely by yourself though no matter how much I try to remind myself that I’m better on my own. That no one can hurt me that way. But even though I’m so very scared of everyone I would like to find a friend …

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4 hours ago • General

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The thought of suicide is the only thought that makes me smile

August 16th, 2017by Baconrind

My happily ever after will be happening soon enough. A publisher is going to publish all my poems. As soon as I finish editing them, my final goal is complete. I already feel lighter. I just want it all to stop

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5 hours ago • General

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Feeling unbelievably low

August 16th, 2017by theblackveal

I am writing this post from South America.
I started falling for a guy here pretty hard.
Today we more than fooled around and I find out he has a girlfriend.
He denies it all, but the evidence is pretty clear.
I feel like a fool and like trash.
I have been feeling uglier and uglier.
I have been feeling low anyways before all of this.
I feel the end is near for me, I just don’t want to carry on, I just want everything to end.

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6 hours ago • General

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Journal Entry # 9

August 16th, 2017by Andreas Cook

I can’t explain myself or what I’m thinking anymore.

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6 hours ago • General

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A gentle companion

August 16th, 2017by Asura

For as long as I can remember, death has always been a comforting friend who’s wathful gaze I could turn to, as I came across dead end after dead end; each one seeming more final than the last. Yet along with all of that I’ve ever done my best to advance as a person, and know myself.

So when I spend an entire summer being denigrated, gaslit, and attacked and emotionally abused by my family all the negativity doesn’t turn to self loathing anymore. And my passive desire to die, twists into one to exact revenge against those who abused me and never once tried to

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8 hours ago • General

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I have a strange problem.

August 16th, 2017by Username123

Strangers I do not even know call the cops on me left and right while I have never done anything illegal.

Its the weirdest thing.

While I am out in public minding my own business random strangers will demonize me screaming at me or making up lies that I have done something I never have

I want to kill these people.

I want to murder them

Ive been suicidal since 13 but I became homicidal at 22. After going to jail because of random strangers.

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9 hours ago • Rants

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I am angry, or some kind of aggresive frustrated.

August 16th, 2017by anthropophobia

I’ve recently posted about a parting ways with a friend of 3 years. It was the result of one of my worst qualities. During times of turbulence and turmoil in my life I have a way of destructively alienating myself. Everything I read, every person I am close with, and the groups that surround me begin to cause a claustrophobia of sorts, and I start lashing out at everyone. This leaves my social life shredded and in tatters.

Since the blow up with my close friend, and what seemed like the end of our friendship, the person came back around. It seemed we reached …

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10 hours ago • General

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Unpleasant Feelings

August 16th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

The advice worked for me.

I saw this video a while ago and shortly after that, I had a huge fight with my mom and in the first half of it, I remembered this video and decided to try the advice to stay present for the unpleasant rush of feelings but at the same time I emotionally detached myself from the fight to observed it in 3rd person; I was basically being the referee of my own fight. I observed my own feelings as well as hers and tried to understand her perspectives. During the fight, I kept asking myself, why, why do I feel this way? …

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11 hours ago • Coping Skills, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope

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Cutting is easier

August 16th, 2017by shatterediris

I look in the mirror and see my worthlessness

I feel the blood pouring out from my wrist

My body empty, face still expressionless

Self hatered boils, why do I still exist?

In a cycle of nonproduction

Failing Classes, making lacerations

endless cycles of self-destruction

Always falling short of expectations

 

All I could will myself to write today, today was fairly bad…. Normally writing shitty things makes me feel better but today it did not, I’m probably just going to cut myself instead it’s far easier.

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11 hours ago • General

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…

August 15th, 2017by Viator

I’m considered an attractive woman, and I’m not yet 30 years old, and I get numbers from people, etc., but I honestly don’t think I have the capacity to “fall in love” again after my own experiences. How can I trust anyone?

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15 hours ago • General, Rants

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Hi

August 15th, 2017by kamidaka

Happy August 15 everybody!

Today was the day I chose to kill myself to test a myth, but sadly I won’t do it.

I have a huge, beautiful thing to do on the 20. And because of the proximity it had with the day I chose for my death, I decided to postpone it.

I’m kinda sad, I really wanted to be today. But at this point, any date will be fine. I can’t keep this lie going on, they’re going to find out sooner or later.

So, new date: the 28, 29 or 30, probably.

I’m kinda scared and sometimes I don’t want to do it, but I have …

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15 hours ago • General

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I really did try

August 15th, 2017by iwouldrathernot

Please excuse my ramblings if they don’t make any sense, I don’t really sleep anymore. This isn’t the root of my problems I’m just saying maybe the things I say won’t make sense because I’m bad at communicating when I am this tired.

 

I don’t really know what I want to say actually, I am just very lonely and lost. My world view is very dark, from what I have seen of the world, it is very ugly to me. I don’t see people in a good way anymore. Lots of things went wrong with me, I hate myself so much.

 

For the past five years, I …

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16 hours ago • My Suicide Note

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how can i feel better?

August 15th, 2017by iamdarling

i have depression – i mostly just sit in my room, and scroll aimlessly through the internet for hours.

what type of things can i do to make myself feel better? bear in mind, i’m only 13.

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16 hours ago • General

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Inspirational TV

August 15th, 2017by PhotographyIsMyLife

Around these parts, NESN (TV) and WEEI (AM/FM) run a 2-day telethon for the Jimmy Fund.  The Jimmy Fund supports cancer refer research.

The really cool thing is that they have a lot of patients on who share their stories.  Their families and often doctors and nurses are on also.  Sometimes it’s families talking about their loved ones who have lost their fight.

The strength, and grace, and compassion that is displayed is inspirational.

Today the telethon will get interrupted by the ballgame, but will resume tomorrow.

 

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17 hours ago • General

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useless

August 15th, 2017by blackopal02

there are 7 billion people on the planet. i dont matter i never will i am worthless and stupid and fat and ugly and i dont matter. let me disappear

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19 hours ago • General, Rants

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Can’t Move

August 15th, 2017by blackopal02

I can’t get out of bed. And that’s one of the main reasons why i hate myself so, so much.

I hate myself for doing nothing, for being unproductive, for being a worthless failure. I hate myself for being so fat and ugly and not trying to do anything about it.

My whole body feels numb and heavy, and my eyelids droop, yet at night i can never sleep.

Why am i like this? Why can’t i be like the girls at my school who have their lives together; who are on the school teams, have friends and significant others, who have no serious physical ailments, and who …

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19 hours ago • General, My Suicide Note, Rants

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Nitrogen method worked but did it? Failed exit bag?

August 15th, 2017by lonely87

I know my husband frequented sites like this.

A month ago he was successful in his quest for death using a nitrogen exit bag. He was 31. He left me behind, as well as two kids age 2 and 7. The pain and grief we feel is heartbreaking, utter devastation.

According to the first eyewitness on scene, my husband had a blue carrier bag over his head. There was a hose by his side. The eyewitness could clearly see the hose was on the seat next to him, his hands by his side, but he had slumped forward (he was in a vehicle). The eyewitness could not …

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20 hours ago • General

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It’s only a matter of time!

August 15th, 2017by Moonlitwaters

I had a surgery back in November 2016 that’s left me in debilitating constant agonizing pain. I developed multiple hernias after a surgery I had back in June 2016. They were incisional hernias. They weren’t painful, but very uncomfortable. I decided to have elected surgery to repair them. I agreed for the surgeon to suture them and then use mesh to reinforce them, so they wouldn’t reoccur. Which was her recommendation. After I came out of surgery I was in agonizing pain and no amount of Narcotics that they gave me could take away the pain. I knew something had gone wrong during surgery, I …

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20 hours ago • Chronic Pain, General

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Im going to kill myself

August 15th, 2017by John Doe

Im going to kill myself when i get enough money too. Need to leave this stupid world asap. Stayed here long enough. My suicide is long overdue

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22 hours ago • General

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Sober

August 15th, 2017by agirland_acomputer

im tired of being sober all the damn time. I am just bored and nothing fucking helps anymore. I felt better when i was high and i felt like i had a reason to keep going and now the drugs are gone and I don’t have any reason to stay.

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23 hours ago • General

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