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What do I say?

April 25th, 2018by annon111

So I think I’ll keep this short.

There’s a girl who I love.

I guess we’re close-ish.

Sometimes thinking about what me leaving would do to her is the only thing that keeps me together. Keeps me alive.

If there’s one person in the whole world I’d want to tell about how I feel so empty and hopeless, it’s her. But I don’t want to scare her off. Like, who would want to hang around negativity like that? wouldn’t. I don’t want to burden her in any way and I don’t want her to feel bad for me. I want her to like me for who I am and care …

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attempt failed

April 25th, 2018by Gary

Took a hand full mix of pills I could find. Ended up passed out on the hotel room floor and vomiting in my stupor… What a mess….  My throat hurts and my head feels like its going to explode. The mix of drugs surely knocked me out but it wasn’t enough. I was hoping it would be over. Now I’m left with thinking of another route. That I will try and I’m sure this time it will be over. They hide my drugs, took my guns and keep a vigil on me, so the only way to get away from them is to go to a hotel. …

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He Left

April 25th, 2018by clipped-wings

Therefore I have no reason to remain.

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No perfect way to start a conversation

April 25th, 2018by Night In Atlantis

Excuse me, hello, I love your plaited rope, where did you get it?
Oh, and apropos of nothing, can you recommend a beautiful park for an afternoon picnic? Ideally one with overgrown evergreens to filter crepuscular rays.

Like an atheist in church or a vegetarian at a steakhouse, I crave a friendship which isn’t there.

You sound interesting. Would you mind if we had a conversation? nightinatlantis@gmail.com

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It’s been almost a year since I’ve been here but surprise im here still alive and breathing… unfortunately

April 25th, 2018by brxken._.lxcks

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April 25th, 2018by thehusk

I don’t know how to deal with the stuff in my head. I know it’s wrong, but it feels so right, so essential. I’m so tired of dealing with that contradiction, that conflict. I’ve broken myself, and now I’m too attached to that brokenness to let go of it. I’m such a fucking waste of life. I just want to go back, and do it all differently. Or live in a different reality, where my instincts aren’t so utterly screwed up, and are morally acceptable. But really, it would just be better if someone without a completely twisted mind were here in my place, and …

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April 25th, 2018by spookichick

ok. now i’ve gone and dun nit. i’m addicted to crack. i started using again as a” coping with life thing”, as oppose to killing myself. of course my choice to do this to myself has backfired. i’m so vulnerable right now. and embarrassed. and weak. and terrified. what am i supposed to do now?

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Living With The Problem

April 25th, 2018by hope1996

I’m 21, just an average adult with bipolar, anxiety, mixed with a little paranoia and depression. I currently live in a 2 bedroom little house with my fiance and a friend in her 2 kids. OK so here is the mist of all my problems. The women staying with us isn’t . We arent allowed to have roommates simply because of the fact the septic cant handle it. Well the landlord knew we had people staying with us because of a surprise visit. Told her a month. Well 2 weeks in she came to my job and kinda surprised me by talking about the roommate …

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Back to see the Solicitor

April 25th, 2018by mo992

Again it is another refusal. Another No!! This time though it’s a no without a strong reason. It’s just a repeat of old information.

WE DON’T BELIEVE YOU.  YOU DON’T HAVE PROBLEMS. YOU MUST BE LYING. YOUR LIFE SEEMS FINE. GO HOME NOW.

After much ado, I have been shot again. I fought with my last ounce of strength and feel I can go no further. I have people supporting me but I have let them down. I am paranoid, stressed, in pain, frustrated, angry, and just destroyed. How can something without form have a form. I am nothing but I exist still.

I saw my solicitor today. …

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Empty

April 25th, 2018by mo992

Empty is how I feel. Not empty in the sense of nothingness. I wish it was nothingness. It’s that empty that hurts. Like a flesh eating worm, it hurts.
It’s hard to put in words this feeling of mine.
I struggle to comprehend many feeling this way.
This terrible feeling goes beyond my gut. It crawls through my every being, like maggots on an open wound.
For over 12 years I have known this feeling. Sometimes this feeling reseeds into the background. Loo it is always there. Feeding, growing, waiting.
It waits for me to see hope, the swiftly drags me down again.
It knows my name, it knows my shame, …

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Crazy or just Paranoid?

April 25th, 2018by robin1244

What defines you?

What makes you you?

Is their even a point to life?

All of these questions I ask myself every day just wondering what you guys think.

-R.B

April 25th 11:48pm

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HELP theirs something wrong with me

April 25th, 2018by robin1244

First of all hi i’m a 16 year old sophomore in high school. This might be weird to say but my life is great I get fantastic opportunities to succeed and I’m surrounded by fun and supportive people but still feel lonely and helpless in someway I have this feeling of guilt every day walking up knowing that I don’t deserve these people around me and the live I life. As you might understand it’s a struggle to get through life with these thoughts in the back of your head every day. Just wanted to say YES, I have gotten professional help but they just wanted …

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a quick day.

April 25th, 2018by evil.lullaby

testing? i am new here. well, i hope this doesn’t go wrong.

 

well, i haven’t been suicidal in a long time. last time was probably i. november (it’s almost may now). but at an ungiven time (that’s secret), i was yelled at by my father and told that i was useless and horrible and many other things. i haven’t been to a mental hospital since september, but i was thinking of calling them to get me through ambulance. well after a nice storm of screaming and being spit on, it was over. i was upstairs on my bed and my father was downstairs doing whatever he …

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Find Relief. Don’t bullshit yourself.

April 25th, 2018by Jean-bean102

I remember that day where I feel so lost and fall into a despair. I googled that I want to die because I had no desire to continue the pain. I wanted the pain to end. Then I find this website, the Suicide Project, where no one would not bullshit me. I was going to commit the suicide, and I saw the link “If you think about Suicide, read this first.” and it lead me to a page. Clearly, I stay to read through. I paused my plan to suicide, like right a few minutes before. I paused because I read that if I want …

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Job Interview gone South

April 25th, 2018by Minxtou

Yesterday I had the most terrible interview experience. Not the interview part specifically, but the making me wait hours and expecting me to give them years of information that I was not prepared to give.

When I became frustrated, they told me I could finish it at home.

This morning they called me and said that even though they had told me yesterday they would hire me, that because I got frustrated, they were changing their mind.

I know I shouldn’t be upset, and I know that I should feel relieved in a certian way, but I am so upset about the whole thing. I really …

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Lost again. :/

April 25th, 2018by FreakStar25

I feel empty again for unknown reason, idk if it’s because i have a lot reason in my head that i can’t identify which one is the reason y i feel empty. I tried to draw again just to divert my attention earlier but the depression is haunting me.

ps.This sounds corny but i hope that someone will ask me if i’m okay…twice. :<

1.Insecurities

Lez die

 

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April 25th, 2018by visual eyes

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The Recycler.

April 25th, 2018by Lesswill

I will fight this fight and i will win. I wont fail cus i have a big God. Bigger than my problems and all my challenges.

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Its getting closer

April 25th, 2018by definitelyworried

Things have been getting worse no matter how much I try for things to get better. And I’m making notes for the people who can make a small difference to change things. I counted on them and they are letting me down. I been talking to them for over a month to do something for me, while I continuously help them out. They chained me up financially, turned me in to a slave and torture me mentally while wearing a mask of love.

I’m thinking in 2 weeks, after I do something that I have to. I will do it, I will hang myself.

These are going …

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An attempt to help.

April 25th, 2018by adamfell

I have suffered from severe depression & strongly suicidal thoughts for 20+ years. I’m currently in my 30’s and this year it has all changed. Not to the inverse of depression per se, I still have a ways to go there, but to a more neutral mental state where I can actually function, and from which I can build a lasting recovery. How? I’ll tell you, because it’s not like I haven’t been trying for 20+ years, and this is the only thing that i’ve found that has lastingly helped.

I read a book called “The Depression Cure” by Doctor Stephen Ilardi. He admits it isn’t …

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