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So lost…

September 25th, 2017by The Devil Speaks

Have you ever realized you don’t fit in anywhere? You can’t because something keeps holding you back. You just don’t belong anywhere. I confuse everybody. If you seen my life, how I was raised, you would be surprised. How my life doesn’t, can’t add up to me having a suicide obsession. I can’t even belong on this website, I’m not supposed to be here. But I can’t belong in the life I have either. A rare case I have in which I would confuse therapists or anyone I talk to for help. Nothing adds up right. I keep it all hidden, because even the very …

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Do you Really want to die?

September 25th, 2017by smeandrun93

Whether you’ve made up your mind, or you’re still deciding, or you’re just struggling and not quite there yet, wait and let me tell you a story.

When I was in high school, I was a mess. I had jumped too far, and found amazing comfort in abusing prescription drugs, and cutting my arms, stomach, legs, you name it.

I played and toyed with the idea of suicide. Ive swallowed handfuls of pills and laid in my bed, feeling my chest swell and beat twice too fast, and way too hard as my body struggled it’s way through the sludge of pills I ate. How my liver …

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Why are we not able to connect with others?

September 25th, 2017by eternaldarkness

I see so many comments here about people not being able to connect with other people. I can’t either. Why is that? Why are you/we unable to connect with others?

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This song speaks to me

September 24th, 2017by Ellen87

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September 24th, 2017by Ellen87

Ever feel like your time is up? Get the sense that death is around but youre waiting for it to hit you?

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September 24th, 2017by Ellen87

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struggling

September 24th, 2017by loosejoystick

i’ve deleted my social media and isolated myself from most physically, the only presence i have is on here. i have my death planned out, all i need is to go to the hardware store not too far from my house. but i can’t seem to get out of bed and do that, the thought of actually dying feels surreal to me, the fact that i can finally escape the pain. anyway, i’d appreciate a chat but i also don’t want to bother anyone.

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September 24th, 2017by loosejoystick

people like to tell me i have no reason to be depressed. that i could be happy, i just choose not to be. up until recently i’ve tried to look at the bright side and shake off my depression and anxiety but it doesn’t work that way. i’ve been diagnosed with depression for 5 years now and i’m 15. i first tried to kill myself when i was 10. i’m a guy meaning that no one really takes how i feel seriously, my parents continue to treat the person who sexually abused me when i was young with respect. not sure what i’m trying to …

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September 24th, 2017by snader

Moving on, as a concept, is easy. It is automatically breathing and taking one step and another, it is walking forward with a hint of history in the back of your eyes and a gleam of hope in front of them. It is doing what people tell you is ‘best, is most normal for people in your situation’ as if they have any idea what that situation is and as if they know what is best for you. But nonetheless, moving on, as a concept, is easy. It requires no effort, it is what we do, what we do, what we do.
Yet in reality …

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September 24th, 2017by freeroma

Had a bad dream this morning.
He was in it, first time in ages.

Felt like I did last March, honestly. Hiding from people, lying. Worrying.
Some of it was realistic, some of it wasn’t. I don’t like the dreams where I’m me.

Went back to sleep, no dreams to recall when I woke up again.

Meh.

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September 24th, 2017by abysmalthoughts7

I’ve decided to cut off any social media that surrounds me around people I know. This is basically the one place I will be getting on and that’s only because I don’t know anyone and also it’s not like anyone will actually be reading my post. It’s quite sad actually it’s like I’m talking to myself. I’m so miserable

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September 24th, 2017by Robigson

So much loneliness… Are you lonely?

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Another day

September 24th, 2017by abysmalthoughts7

Well it’s morning and I still obviously want to die. I really just hate waking up knowing that I have nothing to live for. I already know how my days are going to go. They’re always shitty and im just in bed basically until night time.  I hope I get the guts soon, to end my own life.

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One and Done

September 24th, 2017by Randall

As an FYI, if someone decides to suicide and they ‘think’ they’re going to get another shot at it or go to heaven or hell or see their girlfriend or grandma or you’ll be able to hover around to see these people that have driven you to this drastic act feel bad and guilty…. maybe not. This one shot at being human might be the only shot ever. Worth thinking about.

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I figured it out

September 24th, 2017by iwouldrathernot

So I figured this out finally, what’s been nagging me. I thought I wasn’t sure if I wanted to die, and I thought that’s what was bothering me, but it wasn’t that. You see it’s that I do want to kill myself, but for my current situation it’s not okay to do that. I would be totally in the wrong. So I basically want someone to comfort me and tell me it’s okay to do that.

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Split Mind

September 24th, 2017by likeastone

One side of me feels lonely, and one feels relieved.

Ive just built up too big a wall to really enjoy having a partner for much more than that honeymoon period. I remember starting relationships and loving affection going to actually shuddering (seriously) every time they touched me after a period of time.  And I never broke things off myself, I waited in misery until I got rejected.  Which of course was going to happen – who the hell wants to be with someone who shudders at your touch? One time I even felt, truly truly felt, that weight of the world lift off my shoulders …

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Just realized how sad this sounds.

September 24th, 2017by Cause of Death: Suicide

I’ve been suicidal since 12. It became my favorite life plan at 15. I thought It would be great to kill myself before graduating high school – because school doesn’t matter anyway. It became my only choice and only option at 19. It became severe at 20 to where all I could think about is my desire to end my life. Anyway, the only thing that would distract me from my constant severe suicidal thoughts and desire to self-harm was smoking a doobie and going on nature drives. That is all I would do for 1.5 years. But it was never dull, it never got …

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I want to go…

September 24th, 2017by abysmalthoughts7

I really want to die, I want to kill myself in the most painful way.

I hate waking up everyday, thinking that someone is going to come in my life and turn everything around. Why do I think this?? It obviously isn’t going to happen. I am so miserable and I hate everything about myself. I’m 20 years old and have no friends. No one cares about me, not even my parents, even though they say they do. Everything is always about them, I try to tell them that i’m not okay, but they end up making it about themselves. I don’t like talking to people …

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So much Im going to miss

September 24th, 2017by John Doe

Theres so much Im going to miss, when i finally off myself in about 3 months 🙁

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ASSerrive, pt. II: Honesty

September 24th, 2017by AKidWithAName

“Be assertive! Be confident! Stand up for yourself!”

Why do you always take things back once I say them? I’m just trying to do what you ask me to do. I understand that I probably did it wrong, but you were the one who told me to do it. I’m sorry I didn’t realize you were lying.

Now you all hate me. Now you’re all conspiring against me and I don’t blame you.

I ruined that shit, though. “Oh look at me, I’m going to talk shit behind your back because I’m pathetic.” How dare I seek sympathy. I deserve to feel like shit.

My politesse will get …

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