Eating disorder

  May 21st, 2019 by shayla_mikham

I’ve tried eating but everything in my head says to stop that I don’t deserve to eat that I’m fatter than anybody in my family and everything that goes in my body must come out I don’t know what to do I’m just so lost my mind is winning and I’m losing the fight badly

Moving On

  May 21st, 2019 by midnight1234

A few weeks ago I was having trouble socially. A person who I was friends with, who I’m just going to call Callie, had cut me off. I just wanted to know what had happened but it got to the point that, in hindsight, it had turned into almost harassment. A close friend of mine, who I’m going to call Eli, took my phone and got Callie’s number off of it. Then, without my knowledge and with me actually telling her the day before not to, texted Callie. The text was basically asking her to talk to me, but the final line was something along [...]
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Ways

  May 21st, 2019 by enormousflight

I have tried a zillion ways to stop breathing

I have tried the stupidest ways to do it.

but i failed.

I failed killing myself..

Like always,

I have been a failure all my life.

Like always i have failed this too.

I recently started cutting/scratching

  May 21st, 2019 by alals

I don’t do it very often, but when nothing else calms me down, I don’t really have a choice

Stuck in between

  May 21st, 2019 by Blackholes

You know when you have this kind of void feeling called emptiness, you know what it is. You dwell with it for years and one day you finally feel like the void is filled with life then you’re thankful. Then in a flash, in a matter of a second, the void is back. The black slug. You go in and out of that state and you’re stuck in between.

A thought about loneliness and family issues

  May 20th, 2019 by arielblaze

I guess loneliness isnt just being deprived of contact of other people but also being unable to share something with others. I may have people around with me, that I can chat with, but I may be alone in my desire, if its something that I cant share with anyone. If I dont have the possibility to desire something with someone, then I think this is loneliness, no matter how many people there are around me. Then, there are two alternatives, I guess. One, is to abandon my own desire to be near other people. And the other is to follow my own desire, and [...]
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Surviving for Him

  May 20th, 2019 by shayla_mikham

At 19 years old I received the most horrific news that I had lost my boyfriend to suicide and I got so depressed that I tried to end my life to be with him but ended up in so much pain and ended up being sick my mom knowing something was wrong called 911 and I was rushed to the hospital where I was held for 24 hours then sent to a psych ward where I learned if I didn’t want to survive for myself I had to survive for him and now every time I feel like giving up I remind myself he would [...]
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Cordless, calling CORDless!! And SleeplessMind!

  May 20th, 2019 by SweetQuietus

Hey! Freeroma told me you tried to respond to my recent post but had some trouble. If you want, you can try to respond to this and I’ll keep an eye out on the trash and spam queue to get you approved, if that is even still possible. So much has changed on this site.

Hope you both are well.

Today

  May 20th, 2019 by Dreary-elf

Im still healing from me and love’s relationship ending…
I loved him a lot and… He just made me happy and safe.
Im healing.. It stings but.. Im pushing it through.
Today was just an off day..
My professor was talking about calories and i asked if we could change the subject because the word ‘calories’ just brings back bad memories of me and my eating disorders.
He asked why the topic bothered me and i just ignored the question.
Once lecture was over, i went up to his desk and told him..
I’ve had an eating disorder since middle school and i would starve [...]
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A survivor’s story:

  May 20th, 2019 by SuicidalTeen

Like every other person, I was born… I had a family, not a loving one. I had 1 brother and 1 sister (my brother was 6 and my sister was 3 when I was born). My parents were really abusive however, they were abusive only to me and each other. They always cared and showed live to my siblings. I felt like no one cares about my, felt isolated. I got depressed and felt numb all the time. So I decided to make myself feel again, I got the a razor blade and cut my forearm… It did make me feel, it took away my [...]
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Weird feeling of bliss

  May 20th, 2019 by Yoges

Had a bad day at office. I’m not one of the gunner kind but rather dumb. Just some pathetic faceless employee right at the bottom of the pecking order. Today I was the last one to leave after a hectic project delivery. I felt so bitter thinking about what a chronic loser I am. Drifting half-assedly through life, working for peanuts, and even then not knowing what to do with whatever spare dime I’m making. I just couldn’t make any sense of my being in this world.

But then, while waiting at the bus stop, a strange peace descended upon me, like a whiff of cool [...]
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Is anyone here truly pro-suicide?

  May 20th, 2019 by AXYZ

Like all other places on the internet, this site has an anti-suicide slant. Or call it “support”. That’s fine.

But where does one go to discuss truly pro-suicide thoughts, feelings and philosophies, without the tiresome, hypocritical “don’t do it” from other supposedly suicidal folk?

You can check my past posts to see how often I talk about the scam of “suicide prevention” – a highly lucrative field that encompasses everything from pharmaceuticals to entertainment to selling wrist bands. The news is full of “heroes” who “save” a suicidal person, but nobody prints the follow up story that the suicidal person, after a mandatory 5 day hold and [...]
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Quick question

  May 20th, 2019 by deep.abyss

I’ve been wondering if you guys share this site to some of your friends? Or maybe not friends, but those who you think are in need of a site like this?

I have a friend, I told her about this and I think she’s here. I feel like I shouldn’t have told her, this site is just so special for me. That’s why I promised myself I’ll never gonna tell anyone about this anymore. It just feels good that somehow I know something that they don’t.

Do you guys think the same?

I hate life

  May 19th, 2019 by BIGRICH

I hate life with a passion, I even hate my parents for bringing me into this sick world, can’t wait til I die

  May 19th, 2019 by SwishAL

And I’m losing focus
I knew I should have learned to swim
And I made a promise
To meet you but I doubted it

Im trying to not be sad

  May 19th, 2019 by Dreary-elf

How does one get over a break up when you still have feelings for the one you love?…