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I just want to go far.

June 25th, 2018by Niezzz

I dont know. Can you  ever imagined how miserable my life is. I have a terrible father.  My first sister was a drug addicted. My third sister and my brother didnt finished them school. And im the last one who still studying. And now, i  just started thinking. What do i need  to do with all this fcking shit. I can go through will all my studies, but just weak on math. I mean, im tired to go to school and pretend that everything is okay. Fake a smile. Its hard to focus on study when we hv our probs and suicide thought. Rn, im …

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sleep

June 25th, 2018by soapandwasser

would you say that lacking sleep makes you more depressed? or that it didn’t matter how much or less sleep you have, you’ll still feel awful the next day?

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Most ideal

June 25th, 2018by Agonizing

I was intensely suicidal for months until two weeks ago when i started feeling better and life became worth it. I want to carry on living and recovering for now but im also very keen on making sure i can readily kill myself when i feel to in future, the option needs to always be there so when times get tough or pointless or if i just feel like its time to go, i can do it painlessly and possibly in comfort. I want a suicide kit, everybody should have an escape plan, how naive and irresponsible it is not to. What if i became …

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Hope

June 25th, 2018by midnight1234

Hope

The angel that saves you from the unending darkness

 

Hope

The voice that makes you suffer by making you believe there is something better coming

 

Hope

The demon that pushes you into the darkness for hope of something better

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June 25th, 2018by freeroma

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feelings

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

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Poem

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

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runaway

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

the thought of running away, moving away, crossed my mind. i’m 16.

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father figure

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

“you’ll be fine and everyone around you can be miserable”

thanks dad.

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faded memories

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

its amazing how you see a memory you don’t at all remember, but it still affects you.

my family fell apart exactly 15 years ago.

 

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Sleepless nights.

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

sometimes i can’t sleep.

i toss and turn for hours but my mind just won’t shut off.

i hate it because my mind ponders in all my choices and i wonder if i’m doing things right.

He wont believe me when i say something.

why cant they trust me?

will that ever change?

i hate living here when i feel so i trusted.

it makes me feel like i should’ve just sucked it up and stayed in an abusive home.

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Failure

June 25th, 2018by lonelygirl31

sometimes i feel like i’m going nowhere…

like my life has absolutely no direction.

i don’t have a clue what i want with my life.

i thought i did.

but im terrified to fail.

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Gray

June 24th, 2018by Zigzag

There’s nothing left.

My boyfriend broke up with me because of my anorexia.

Ive lost motivation to do well in school.

I dont care about my work performance, and neither does my boss.

its the same exhaustion every day. no friends, no life, apathy.

All I want is the gym and my winter coat. Green tea and black coffee. A scale, my measuring cups, and a bag of apples. Thats all that I care about in life right now.

I just…cant function. Im empty. Apathetic.

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Feeling lonely… need a friend

June 24th, 2018by lonelygirl31

i’m having a really rough time. i lived in an emotionally and mentally abusive home for years and just recently moved in with my other parent. but it’s not at all what i thought it would be like. now we are fighting every night and they are swearing and making me feel stupid and useless and awful. i have no one. moving to this parents home meant a different district and no friends. so i have no one to help me or talk to to get away for a bit. and i can’t go back to the other parent… they told me they never want

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Bandaids

June 24th, 2018by SilentVoices

The medicine is like a bandaid.

After months of crawling in the metaphorical dirt, my physician got fed up and referred me to a psychiatrist. I didn’t fight it, I gave up.

I’ve given up for a while now. I’m in a mental limbo: I care… but I don’t.

How may times have I cycled through the mental healthcare system? I’ve lost count.

Have a crisis… see the Doc… meet the new Psych… get meds… ignore everything…. Have a crisis- again.

I thought I was doing well. I always think I’m doing well. The medication slaps a lid on my emotions, muffles the voices… for a while. But when the …

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we can’t go to hell if we’re already there

June 24th, 2018by seemokay

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My life sucks.

June 24th, 2018by Niezzz

Im 15 years old and a girl. Im so fucked up with my life. I always think about suicide. But i dont want to being a burden to my family. My sister gonna get married on this August. I dont want to destroy them. I have a terrible dad. Sometimes he drink alcohol. He’s a angry person. He had a tattoo. And guess what? We are a Muslim. Since i was a child, i always thought that i’ve already out from my religion because of my dad. I dont have friends. Im ashamed with my ownself. My mother dont take my suicide seriously.

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June 24th, 2018by OFFTheShadows

Everyday I think about suicide many times and every time I forget it distracting me with sth. But I’m aware of this process of wishing death x trying to keep alive so it’s fucking tiring. Nothing fills me in. The void is always there.

 

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June 24th, 2018by OFFTheShadows

I’m tired of restart, reconsider, recreate myself to retry to keep living.

Why living is so valuable if it’s a repetitive and pointless shit?

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I don’t know what to do

June 24th, 2018by DeadPotato

My mum hates me. School is impossible. My friends are all moving. I’m tired of life. But I’m scared to die. What do I do?

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